Getting anon hate is a blessing because to know that I pissed a person off so much but they are still afraid of me so they hit that anon button is a confident booster.
I really hate being an introvert because I sometimes think “oh hey, I can totally hang out with a bunch of people right now! I can handle it! I hate being alone!!” and then three hours into hanging out I realize how draining of energy it is for me to be around other people and I just want to curl up into a ball and isolate myself for the rest of my life.